Well, I have had a detour. I had a simple, outpatient procedure planned for Tuesday morning, February 14. I know, "who plans a procedure for Valentine's Day??" Well, it was the week Dallas was off work, so we were off school and I didn't have to worry about having him take a day off or anything. Except that every medical procedure comes with risks. Between my family history and Murphy's Law (Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong... or something like that.) Something went wrong. Two additional surgeries and 7 days in the hospital! I think I was even slightly addicted to my pain drug for a couple of days there! I have been home for three days now, and I am just not feeling as well as I think I should, and my doctor agrees. One's body just takes a while sometimes to get over the sting of surgery.
Today I slept... A LOT. And I hope it helps because tomorrow I will actually be home with my children! I miss them. I miss our "normal" {Tongue-in-cheek}. I miss helping them and snuggling them on my lap. I missed Joe's birthday!! I miss reading to them and being able to actually stay awake to finish the chapter! I don't miss cooking. {Thank you, church family!!!}
I feel as if I got a little lost on this detour. I am not very faithful to read my bible and pray, but I had been working on it before this happened. Dallas and I had got into the routine of having family devotions before school each morning, but we've been distracted {to say the least}. I wanted to read the Gideon bible in the hospital room, but had double vision from all the drugs. {2 IV's, 3 pumps; 4 bags of antibiotic, plus saline, nutrients, potassium, and pain} My emotions had shut down through it all, and I didn't feel like talking. {What???? I know!!} I never questioned God, though. I knew He was in control. I knew it didn't do any good to ask "Why?" I was able to lie there and trust that He knew what He was doing, and asked Him to teach us what He wanted us to learn. It still may take us a while to figure that out, as long as we learn!
Praying for you! Get well and strong and keep trusting in the Lord!
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